Utter Frustration

I'm not going to lie y'all... people know me too be raw and real. I'm usually pretty strong y'all but these deaths are breaking me down. Yesterday I was at a rally and I had to sit down, this woman came up to me, I must have been zoned out because it took a second for her to get my attention. She asked if I was ok, then I busted up in tears. We went somewhere private to talk, luckily I was surrounded by people who understood and cared. Luckily, I was able to escape and get lost in the chants and drumming of over 800 people later. Luckily I was able to talk and share with others who care about what's going on in the Sip and are asking what they can do to help.

Today I took a nap, woke to yet another "suicide". I will always put "suicide" when referring to these in quotes. I don't always believe it when I see "suicide" but we won't get into my beliefs. 3 deaths in 36 hours y'all. When dafuk is this going to stop. What is it going to take. We're 3 weeks into January y'all. 2020 was "going to be our year". MDOC why you f'king it up so bad already? Why you blaming it on the guys inside? The guys are tired. The guys have put up with your shit long enough, MDOC. We've put up with your shit long enough. Now we can't even talk to our love ones to hear their voices, know they are ok and stop there fear you have growing in us. I SAY FUCK YOU MDOC FUCK YOU. I don't cry over anything but frustration. I'm so fucking frustrated right now because MDOC you don't give a shit how people feel. All you care about is covering your damn asses, which wouldn't have to be done if y'all were following the rules like you expect all of us to do from the beginning.

GAME OVER MDOC GAME OVER.